Extremes?!

Is it possible for a relationship to have too many extremes?

Over the last couple weeks, ever since the breakup, people have been asking me what went wrong.

I wish I knew....

I have gone over many different reasons and I still don't have an answer.

Could the many extremes our relationship went through been a detriment?

We met on a trip to China...

Two months after our relationship began he left for a year away at school....

When I finished school I moved to where he was...

It was stressful; it took a long time to find a job...

Then we left on a 5 week trip across the country....

Is it possible that by the time we got back and had the chance to settle down into a less extreme relationship it was too late?

We were both happy--but we feared we could be happier.

This is my chance to be happier and yet, right now anyhow, I feel 100 times worse.

When will the lonely heart go away? When will I be able to not think that we have just made the biggest mistake of our life? When will I be able to know that this was exactly how it should be? Will I ever know that or will I always wonder?

I wish somebody could help me with these answers....

Instead...I will ponder, by myself.

I will cry.

I will listen to music.

And I will try to heal....try.